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We have the extreme pleasure of sharing the positive thoughts of Crystin Gilmore on the HonesThespian blog this week. Crystin’s faith-based approach to her theatrical work and life is inspiring. Pour yourself a fresh cup of coffee and enjoy some motivation from the elegant and dedicated, Crystin Gilmore.
Riding the Wave: How to have consistent peace while you’re looking for work.
It’s audition season. You are prepared with a capital P. You have your song book marked with every genre possible, 32, 16 and 8 bar cuts. Your monologues are memorized and practiced. You have a classic, contemporary, dramatic and comedic monologue on deck. You’re ready. You’re excited. Happy to get your 60 to 120 seconds to shine bright like a diamond. You do your part. You show up EARLY or when you can, but you show up. Depending on your union affiliations, you may be able to make an appointment. What a blessed place to be! One day I will wear those appointment shoes, but for now, I’m with the rest of you all, early and when I can. Every day is 100% effort, but No, you don’t always get seen. Some days you’re 0-3. Even though each day carries different obstacles, your desire to be in the room where it happens will never change. How do I handle this? Well, with all the things I can’t control, I hold on tight and contently to those I can.
What can I control? My preparedness when that opportunity comes. I do vocal warm-ups in my shower. I make sure I’m very comfortable with my monologues and music. I wear clothes that I’m most comfortable in and character influenced. I say YES! Yes to flexibility in character choices. Yes to vulnerability, Yes to sharing and receiving. I say yes to my dreams and yes to my gift, but if anything has kept me grounded, rooted and peaceful, it’s my faith. I’m reminded through my relationship with the Lord, that what God has for me, is for me and what someone else has isn’t meant to be mine. This is freedom to me. It takes the edge off. I go to auditions cheering everyone on because I don’t know whose day it is to reap the reward of hard work. I go available and ready to share. This doesn’t mean I talk to everyone while I’m there, because I’m very quiet in my preparation process. This means I’m open and aware of my surroundings. I offer a smile and or warmth. Everyone in that room is just as vulnerable as I am. We are all there with the same hopes and dreams. Confidence is what changes your interaction with people and it’s what grounds you.
What helps while you’re waiting? Affirmations. Keep a list of positive affirmations in your phone or in your audition binder. Remind yourself of who you are. A few of mine are- “I am imperfectly perfect. I’m built for this. I’m talented beyond measure. I have what it takes to make my dreams come true.” See it- Visualize your dreams and dream bigger. See yourself walking up to receive your Tony or Golden Globe. Envision yourself signing your first Broadway contract. This gives you a clear path to focus on. Write it down and make it plain- Habakkuk 2:2 “And the LORD answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth it.” Write down with specificity what you want. Write down your most desired things and watch God move.
Faith and Fear may start with the same letter, but they can’t be farther from friends. F.E.A.R. is False Evidence Appearing Real. Faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. Hebrew 11:1. Being in this business already requires a faith in one’s own talents, gifts and abilities. It must continue to exist in your climb. The journey is where the growth occurs. Your challenges will merit the best testimonies. Keep going. Persistence- can’t stop, won’t stop. Your gift is meant to be shared. It’s supposed to motivate others. If you don’t keep going until your empty, your dreams will die with you. No one else gets them. Remember that. Your purpose on this earth can’t be fulfilled by anyone else.
What do I want you to take from this? What God has for you is for you. God is patiently waiting on you to go for it. He’s waiting on you to show up and show out. You can never run out of time because you will not leave this earth until your purpose is fulfilled. That is, if you don’t give up. Be prepared. Roman philosopher Seneca said that luck/success happens when opportunity meets preparation. And please remember you define your own success. So, go out there. Do your best and forget the rest. Live a life of no “shoulda, coulda, wouldas.” Show up for yourself and remember, hard work pays off. Live each day like you’re dying and be unstoppable. Enjoy the journey, for that’s where you will find the tools, lessons and the ability to relate to the characters that you will one day portray. Yep, you’ve got what it takes to ride the wave. Surfs up!
Crystin Gilmore
Born in West Tennessee to a preacher and an educator, I discovered my love for performing in school talent shows at an early age. My true passion soon evolved into acting. I currently live in New York and plan to keep doing what feeds my soul and challenges me to grow. Performance Credits: Brenda in Smokey Joe’s Cafe, Shug in The Color Purple at Playhouse on the Square & Speakeasy Stage Company-Ostrander, IRNE and Arts Impulse Award, Motormouth Maybelle (Hairspray), Evilene (The Wiz), Matron Momma Morton (Chicago) with CSC. Jesus & Family First. Be Unstoppable. http://www.crystingilmore.com